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4 Ways to Honor Your Baby Gone Too Soon

4 Ways to Honor Your Baby Gone Too Soon

A year ago and a half ago we lost a baby to an ectopic pregnancy. I was in the ER with terrible cramps, being prepped for the surgery that couldn’t be avoided. I was experiencing the first death in my immediate family. The closest grief my heart has ever known began that day as I realized for the first time that healthy pregnancies can not be taken for granted.

Like a dip in ice cold water, the shock and the emptiness took my breath away. The helplessness of grief and the darkness of sudden loss was overwhelming. Anyone who has experienced the loss of a loved one knows what I’m talking about.

One minute, everything was fine with my HCG pregnancy levels tripling and the next moment I was being told that my tiny baby was stuck in the fallopian tube and there was no way to save him or her. Faith got me through that heart-wrenching time. And the support and prayers of those around me.

Now a year and a half later, it’s hard to believe so much time has already passed. The sense of loss is still with me and it always will be but, as grief does, it becomes less vivid and bitter with the healing of time. I think of my child every day and wonder what he or she would have looked like and remember what age that baby would be at now. I will always have a place in my heart for the little one who never had a chance to live in this life. He or she will always be my third child.

I have found over this past year that it is comforting to remember the baby and to find ways to honor the little life that I carried in my womb for so short a time. Even though the baby has gone onto the next life and we never had a chance to meet him or her, little Austin Mercy is still a member of our family and we will always carry a piece of him or her with us.

4 Ways to Honor Your Baby Gone Too Soon. Christian

If you or someone you know has experienced the loss of a baby either before or after birth, here are my suggestions for honoring and remembering that precious little one.

Memory book or remembrance journal

You may not have pictures of the baby but you may have memories or thoughts you want to keep alive and writing them down in a journal can be a way to record your grief experiences. You may find it therapeutic to write letters to your child or to just pour out your jumbled emotions from time to time when the aching grief just becomes overpowering. Right after our little one died, I wrote a heartfelt letter in my grief and it was very healing for me to spill all the feelings out.

We also received many sympathy cards and we took pictures at the community memorial service our local hospital hosts for all the babies that have died. These mementos I saved to put together in a small memory scrapbook. There were certain prayers, scripture verses and hopeful moments that all affected me in a positive way during this year of loss and those are items I want to hold dear in a scrapbook because it’s all I have.

Personalized Items

A beautiful way to honor your baby is to give him or her a name and display it in your home. Giving the baby a name gives them an identity and makes them more a part of your family even though they are gone. Since our baby’s remains are buried in a community crypt we do not have a personalized grave for our child, but we do have personalized items around our house to remember our little one.

One item we have is a small wooden butterfly in a flower bouquet with the baby’s name scrawled across it on our dresser.

Another item is a framed name printable hung in the kids’ room with the death anniversary underneath it so that our older children will always have a visible reminder of their sibling. I purchased our printable from Sweet Little Ones Shop and there are plenty of other options on Etsy to order customized name prints.

We also have a Christmas ornament ball with the baby’s name handpainted by me that we bring out and hang on our tree at Christmastime.

Garden Memorial

In the fall we planted tulips bulbs in honor of baby Austin and this spring they bloomed beautifully. It was a small but comforting gesture to remind us of new life after death and the hope that comes with the spring season. We have fondly named them “Austin’s Tulips”. I did some research and discovered an online resource that talked about making a baby memorial garden and how different flowers have different meanings in relation to grief. I’m tentatively planning to create one eventually.

Jewelry

It can be comforting to have a piece of jewelry to keep the memory of your baby always close to you in a physical way. A friend of mine made me a charm bracelet with the initials of our baby’s name which I deeply cherish. You can find something like that or a locket or a birthstone necklace like this one to remember your little one.

Even though we may not have had much time or even any memories with our babies, they are still a part of us and are members of our families. When we find ways to remember them we acknowledge and honor their existence, however short it might have been until we can meet again.

Rest in Peace Baby Austin Mercy. 5.24.2016.

If you have lost a baby and you want me to pray for you, I have a running list of moms I pray for daily who are also grieving the loss of a little one. Please visit my blog at lovelylittlelives.com and send me a message under the “About Tab -Work with Me”.

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2 thoughts on “4 Ways to Honor Your Baby Gone Too Soon

  1. Hannah,

    I am so sorry for your loss. My first baby was lost in an ectopic pregnancy. I began bleeding and cramping May 10th. My first trip to the doctor to confirm the loss was May 13th. They could not find the baby and assumed it was “just a miscarriage” until several weeks later. I was *very* sick and rushed in for emergency surgery that would end my baby’s life to save mine. I understand the seriousness better now than I did at the time, but it still hurts. That was 1996. I’ve never forgotten.

    Thank you for sharing your beautiful story and these ideas to celebrate a life that will always be part of our family. I now have five boys and am a single mom. During the handshake of Peace, on weekends my boys are not with me, I quickly kiss each fingertip of my right hand and pray for each of my five. Then I do the same for the palm of my hand and pray for that baby. When I close the fingers of my hand it’s like they all come to gather around the baby. It helps remind me that the baby is separate but very much in the heart of our family and that we will all be together in Heaven one day.

    Tonight I will pray our children are in Heaven together playing with Angels, hugged by Mary their Mother, and serving the Lord with impish smiles. Prayers also for you and your family.

    1. God bless you, Kerri. What a beautiful way to pray for your family! <3

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